kash
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Post by kash on May 23, 2022 16:22:34 GMT
I feel a little guilty. I have my 9 am discussion usually in person but I woke up this morning at 8 am, and just simply could not bring myself to walk all the way to the end of the main campus this early in the morning. We had our final group presentation today so I most definitely had to attend, so I asked my group members to zoom me into the meeting. I was a little nervous about how it was going to go because everyone was basically in person and I was online, but it thankfully went very smoothly and my TA did not really seem to mind that I was presenting online. Today is also going to be a bit of a busy day for me. I have a couple of things on the agenda today, and I am a little nervous regarding the fact that I will be able to finish everything. I have 2 interviews today which I am excited about, a pledge meeting, and then my sorority has a date party tonight. It is the last one of the year which is why I really wanted to attend, but I am a little nervous because the pledge meeting ends at 9 and the busses for the date party leave at 10, so I probably will bring my stuff to pledge meeting to get ready in one of the bathrooms. The theme of the night is "Property Brothers" which I am a little confused on how to dress for, but I think I may wear a nice dress with a tie on the top and a hard hat.
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Post by alizanovoa on May 23, 2022 19:35:01 GMT
I have this sharp pain at the temples of my forehead and it might have to do with the amount of stress that I feel like I am in. Last week I understood that I had no obligation to do with Kappa Alpha Pi taks but I used that time to do my work for school. This quarter has genuinely been the hardest for me. Like I do not feel like I can push through to finish. My body has taken an emotional and physical toll this week. I have not expressed to anyone how I have really been feeling because I do not want to burden someone with my problems because they are not that big. But I genuinely feel like I am crashing. Tomorrow I have this big paper due that is important that I need to get done because I failed the second midterm and I studied hard this time I did the essay prompts but it was timed so that caused me so much stress. I want to wake up early shower and get stuff done but all I want to do right now is go home. Like home, I have missed so many events from being here that I simply can not do it anymore. I want to take a summer class and redo everything I did this quarter but my dad said I need to rest and he is not wrong but I simply can not rest when I feel like a failure. Like my spot at UCLA should have gone to someone else. Anyways I just want eventually sleep and rest for a long time so I can not wait to go home. Maybe I will go home this weekend because I can not be here anymore. Lol if this is a mess it is because I did this with tears in my eyes. I really want to drop my political science class but that would be the second class I drop so like my only option is to get the F. I do not know what to do anymore.
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Post by oliviadelapp on May 23, 2022 20:00:50 GMT
Today I woke up at 9:30 in order to go down to Westwood and get a few things for Active Appreciation later this week. Since I was already down there, I grabbed Chickfila for lunch. Because I was carrying so much, Colton ended up birding down to Westwood to help me bring stuff back to campus which was nice of him. Once I got back to campus, I walked to Haines Hall to attend my 3-hour neurolaw seminar. I had another deja vu moment today when my TA told us we were working on elevator pitches, as I have also been for my elevator pitch for our mock interviews on Wednesday. After this class is over, I plan on doing some studying for our quiz during the pledge meeting tonight, and then I have 2 interviews from four to six tonight. I am excited about these interviews but kind of sad that they are my last ones during the pledging process. I have really enjoyed getting to know everybody in Kappa Alpha Pi. After this, we have our pledge meeting from 7-9, and then I plan on working a little more on things for active appreciation with my pledge brothers. I know this week is going to be a rough week, especially with Hell week and everything else going on in my life. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude though, and just try and take one day and its tasks at a time so I do not get too overwhelmed.
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Post by danieljudd on May 23, 2022 22:28:56 GMT
Oh boy, we have officially entered Hell Week. Lowkey kinda hyped for it though. I feel like Im ready to show the active body all the hard work that I have put into pledging over the past quarter and am definitely ready for the pledging process to hopefully end soon so that I can put my full focus towards preparing for finals and somehow trying to save the wreck that is my GPA this quarter. Its definitely been a tough quarter but I am glad that it has went the way that it has. Now I just gotta figure out how im gonna get all my interviews done today, prep for pledge meeting, do some brotherhood stuff with my pbros, and then somehow right a 6 page essay due tomorrow... yikes. I got this though, Ive gotten through worse this quarter and Im sure Ill have tougher challenges ahead of me at UCLA, law school, and life in general. Im pretty optimistic as I can feel Summer Break on the horizon, just gotta survive a few more weeks of grinding and Ill be free. My last worry now is trying to make sure I can somehow secure some kind of internship or something for the Summer, because I really want a resume booster over the 4 months that I have of break. A few of the internships that I thought would work out have not responded to me yet, so I am starting to get a bit worried about that, Im sure Ill figure something out. If not, theres always the backup option of falling back on my Youtube career and becoming a full time blogger. Interested to see how Hell Week works out, but I guess thats what all my future posts this week are gonna be about, so we shall see.
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Post by korrale on May 24, 2022 4:48:57 GMT
Today I unfortunately woke up a little later than I planned and I couldn’t get as much work as I wanted. I had a final presentation for one of my classes today so I spent most of my time preparing for that. My groupmates are really easy going and they all do their part. Despite being randomly thrown together, we work really well together and we are all willing to do our part. I am also really interested in this class as it is Environmental Journalism and I enjoy learning this type of content. The highlight of my day today was eating Oreos. I bought a packet of Oreos the other day for the first time and I totally forgot how good they were. I don’t have any milk but they were still delicious. Everytime I eat Oreos I remember that they are vegan but I also remember that this is probably because it has a bunch of chemicals in it. With how good they taste though, I don’t really mind what chemicals are in it. Oreos and milk is just something that always makes me happy. Another highlight of my day was an embarrassing moment I had in class. I had an energy drink in my water bottle and I forgot that it was carbonated so I kept shaking it around. When I opened it in class, it exploded and I had to run to the restroom to clean it all up before class started. My groupmates all saw and honestly it was really embarrassing but I’m sure they’ve forgotten it by now.
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Post by jonalyngaspar on May 24, 2022 4:58:27 GMT
Today I decided to sleep in again, so I woke up around 10:30 am. After I woke up I got dressed for a hike that I had planned. After looking at the weather app, it was pretty gloomy so I wore joggers for the hiking trail. Soon as I finished getting ready, I then went to eat a light brunch at one of the dining halls. When I arrived at the dining hall, I decided to get a burrito with steak. After eating I then headed to my car to drive to the trail. On the way to the trail there was a bit of traffic heading north, but it was not as bad as I thought. When I arrived at the trail, I met up with my friends. As we were walking it was actually pretty hot and I regretted not wearing shorts. This trail specifically was the one that was the view of the Hollywood sign. But as we were walking the trail ended up being too difficult so halfway through we headed back. After our hike we then decided to get smoothie bowls which were super yummy. The bowl I got was one with berries and peanut butter. After eating, I then went back to Westwood for the pledge meeting. I decided to wear a blue suit today because my other one was dirty. Soon after my pledge meeting I got dinner with my adopted big izzy. I settled on getting a sandwich for dinner but my appetite was not as large.
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Post by jackcarleton on May 24, 2022 5:06:48 GMT
Today was pretty mid. I woke up kind of early to write emails. I think I ended up getting out of bed around 10:30. After I finished writing those I watched Bojack Horseman for a while in bed. I've been binging Bojack recently. That show is really good and I would recommend to anyone who hasn't seen it. After that I showered and got ready. I went to bplate next and had lunch. After that I walked to Max's apartment and did an interview with her while we walked. After that I went to Ackerman and got a new bruincard because mine was damaged and no longer swiped which was really annoying. I ran into Faith there which was nice because we talked for a few minutes. After that I met Chanel for an interview at 2 pm. It was fun talking with her. After that I did work at Ackerman for a while before going to Kerk and getting a latte. Then I met David on Janss and conducted another interview at 4:15. This was one of my favorite interviews all quarter. David is a super cool dude. After that I met Peter and we went to Rende together. We met up with Izzy while we were eating too which was fun. After that I went to pledge meeting which was alright. After pledge meeting I went to bplate with a few of my pbros, and they had chocolate peanut butter which made my night. Now I'm back in my room about to head to Wooden to lift and then study for twin trials when I get back.
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Post by cyacoleman on May 24, 2022 6:01:51 GMT
Today I woke up late and skipped my first class. I feel like missing my first class today set the tone for the rest of the day, which was not very good. I was really low energy today, and I honestly wanted to spend the whole day in bed. I had to convince myself to get out of my room. Once I mustered enough energy to get out of bed, I spent another hour or so mopping about my classes because I am genuinely concerned about my academic performance this quarter. Like, I don't know if I'm going to be able to pull through at this point. I have already killed off so many family members this quarter for extensions. It is crazy, but I feel like I'm out of excuses. Despite this awful position I am currently in, the optimist in me assures me that everything will work out even though things look bad right now. So I am trying my hardest not to stress too much, but it has been difficult thus far. On top of academic stressors, we have also just entered Hell week, and I am not starting on a positive note. There has just been so much going on. I completely missed my weekend journal, which sucked because that put me on probation. On top of that, I did not meet this week's quota, which only dug my hole deeper. I'm not going to lie; this week might be pretty rough for me. I feel like tears will come just because I'll be so overwhelmed with everything going on, so I'm going to try to prepare myself for that mentally. Despite the outcome of this pledging experience and "if" I cross or not, I'm proud of myself for sticking it through, even though there were times that I wanted to drop so badly. Plus, I'll be a lot less stressed after this week, and I can focus on my academics.
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Post by coltonharrison on May 24, 2022 6:08:16 GMT
Today felt like the first normal day that I have had since going into quarantine. Like any normal day this quarter it was filled with stress regarding pledging. I had to find a number of people to interview for quota which was extremely stressful, and the stress is building for the upcoming hell week. I am excited, but I also know that my week could go off the rails at some point this week. I am also super stressed about another issue, but I think I am handling it. Lucas was extremely helpful all day today and I had a really nice conversation with him about the issue. He was super supportive and helpful and it really made me realize how glad I have been to have him as a big this quarter. My ABig Matthew was also unbelievably helpful this week as he knows many of the active members in this fraternity and he is always willing to help me with my problems. Over the weekend, I was able to call him and ask for his advice and it felt good to have his help. I met my quota and collected all of my signatures, and then I was able to write my interview journals for the week for the very last time! I cannot believe that we are finally reaching the end of the pledging process and I am so excited to be finished with it. Although the end of pledging means that I will have to revive my grades from the dead which is a little terrifying. We had our very last pledge meeting tonight which was kind of sad. It was over really quick and the vibes were a bit strange but it went smoothly. After the meeting I walked back up the hill with Aliza and we talked about our plans for twin trials. I sat with Abby outside of 1919 while I waited for people to come and get their paddles so that they can start decorating them.
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Post by Faith Ndegwa on May 24, 2022 6:47:48 GMT
Today, I went to the Bruincard Center to get a new Bruin Card since I had lost my whole lanyard at the KP event. I ran into one of my pledge brothers and we talked a bit about quota and our expectations for Hell Week. After leaving, I got sushi at the Drey since I knew it would not be a long wait and it was on the way back to my dorm. I was happy that I was finally able to swipe my card in peace and instead of constantly going to the front desk to get a meal voucher. I returned back to my dorm to finish up some interview journals before our meeting. I went with Cya to the Study before our pledge meeting. I got my usual order, a toasted sourdough sandwich with mozzarella cheese, pesto sauce, pepperoni and chicken - sometimes I add olives and this happened to be one of those times. I was happy that I did not have to retake a quiz since I have had to do so for about half of our pledge meetings. It was bittersweet knowing that this was the last of our pledge meetings and that Hell Week was overall coming to an end. I, then, found out from my mom that someone had messaged her on facebook saying they had found my lanyard. I was a little upset that I had already spent money on a new Bruincard & debit card, but I was happy to have my license and medical card back in my custody. Someone had found it outside their building and thought it belonged to one of the residents, hence why she held onto it for so long. I was really appreciative of her kindness and the fact that she brought it all the way back to the hill for me despite living deeper into Westwood. Then, I had met up with Raina to catch up a bit and prepare for Twin Trials. Throughout our conversation, we sketched out our designs for our paddles that we were giving to our Bigs. She was actually a great artist and I know her paddle is gonna look amazing in the end.
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Post by julianaabraham on May 24, 2022 6:55:24 GMT
Today, I woke up after getting barely any sleep (three hours for those that think its a competition). I was stressing about a final that I had to do, so I ended up trying to figure that out and planning for it. Then, I got ready for the day and ate some sour gummy worms. They were delish. I then chugged some of my weird energy drink I got from a vending machine at 4am last night and then was on my way to an interview. I met up with Micah and we sat on the grass by Janns. I then walked over to meet my always late twin, Vedant. We got some mediocre B-Plate, I don’t even remember what it was but I can’t imagine it to be amazing-- besides my coconut yogurt which I adore. Then, I went to my lounge with my twin and stressed some more about my final. Once I got an extension, I was in a much happier mood. I helped my twin out with some work as well and just chilled and wasted time before our brotherhood event. I then walked to the brotherhood event where we got some coffee, where Micah broke Vedant’s fruit and I got a free cookie (my two favorite things: ruining Vedant’s life and cookies) . Then, we walked over to our pledge meeting. After the meeting, I was FORCED once again to go to B-Plate. I had some soggy salad covered in ranch and beans. It was a depressing meal for a depressing day (minus the fruit and cookie).
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Post by lesliehernandez on May 24, 2022 6:56:03 GMT
Today was a long day. I woke up at 7am to get to work at 8:30am. Work was a really long and tiring day. But I like Mondays cause my boss isn’t there so it’s just me in the office. After work, I went home cause I was tired. I took a 30 minute nap, and woke up to make food. I made sandwiches for lunch. And then I had to run to the hill to meet with Anita for our 2:20 interview. The interview was really fun, Anita is a really cool person I really enjoyed talking to her. After I went to Aliza’s dorm to do work and we stayed there for a while up until we had to go to pledge meeting. Pledge meeting was short and bittersweet. It was out last meeting as a pledge class and it felt nice to finally be done. Afterwards we all walked back together. I walked home. When I got home I took another nap. I woke up and did my reading reflection assignment. After my assignment I was done for the day. So now I’m going to shower and go to sleep. It was a short, simple, but bittersweet day.
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Post by vedantmehra on May 24, 2022 6:58:06 GMT
Today was, once again, a pretty chill day. I returned from my fraternity formal at Palm Springs yesterday so I was still pretty burnt out. I slept in, as usual, until around 12 PM. After waking up, I mindlessly scrolled through TikTok for a bit, watched some Spongebob, and then went and got ready for the day. After putting my suit on, I got lunch at BPlate with my twin Juliana. I purposely arrived late just to make her wait for a bit LOL. After lunch, we headed to the lounge in Delta Terrace to study for our quiz retakes and discuss Twin Trials. In the end, we just procrastinated. After some time, we headed towards main campus for our pledge meeting. However, I did not know what lay in wait for me on my innocent walk to Bunche Hall. I was ambushed by Micah on BruinWalk. She destroyed my poor little cantaloupe with no remorse, smashing it on the ground and then throwing it in the bushes. It was bittersweet. At least I didn’t have to carry it around anymore… or so I thought. At the meeting I was informed that I would once again be the fruit pledge because I was spotted multiple times without it in my possession, but really I believe that it was because I had shown the most growth in my pledge class once again this week. I passed my quiz retakes though. Never in doubt. Olivia and I updated our pledge class on the executive decisions we had taken as co-social chairs for active appreciation (I hate democracy). After that, I convinced Juliana to come to BPlate and I ate with her, Jack, and Olivia. Tomorrow is gonna be tough because it seems like defending Juliana in Twin Trials will be a near impossible task. Good luck to me.
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Post by rainajain on May 24, 2022 6:59:27 GMT
Today, I woke up early-ish around 9:00 to do some catch up work. However, I woke up to an email from active brother Anita, who was wondering if I wanted to meet for an interview at 10. I was glad that I woke up in time to get ready, I met with Anita, which was really fun as she is a really enjoyable person to talk too. I have not gotten to really speak to her since coffee chats, so I was really happy to get to speak more with her. After that, I head to Anderson before my next meeting. I spent some time at Anderson working on my final projects for neuroscience. We had to do elevator pitches for our project ideas today, and I thought that the information from membership education was really helpful in doing this. It was also my last law class today, which was really sad because it was my T.A Julie's last class ever. She has been my favorite T.A all year and has been so helpful in explaining law school and what preparations she took, which was really helpful to both me and my pledge brother Olivia. After this I went to my stats lecture which was horribly boring. Then, I went to plate. The food was really gross today. I had a bite of steak and some dessert bread, which left me feeling extremely hungry. I ate some chips later and was able to get a smoothie as well which made me feel a bit more high energy. Then, I went to my pledge meeting. I was disappointed in myself for missing quota. Then, I worked on paddles with my twin, Faith. This was really fun. I learned more about her as we prepped for twin trials which are tomorrow.
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Post by abigailrubtsova on May 24, 2022 6:59:50 GMT
This has been an insane week. I was having a really rough week and to top everything off, I began to get sick right before the weekend. Thursday night I had the pizza fundraiser and it was raining and I already wasn’t feeling good. Daniel and I stayed out there longer than we needed to because some people were showing up late to their shifts and we didn’t want other pledge brothers to be left by themselves. That night I returned to my room and thought I was going to sleep, but ended up getting into a big fight with my roommate. That kept me awake until 4:30 in the morning and I decided I would email my TA and ask to not to go to section. When I woke up on Friday, I felt terrible. My entire body was dead. I could barely move. I had a 103 degree fever and every other gross symptom. I slept the entire day. When I woke up at 8pm all I did was eat a PBJ, watch How I Met Your Mother, and went back to sleep. On Saturday, I did some stuff but I mainly took the day to rest as well. Sunday, I woke up a new woman. Suddenly, I had the ability to move, to breathe, to live. I woke up and went to the study to grind. I got so much done, it was actually insane. I feel like I might be actually coming to terms with what happened after that fight with my roommate, and I can get closure from the situation. Today, I picked up my grandmother and we went to court for my brother’s adoption hearing. Obviously he was already my brother before he got adopted but this was to finalize it. I was listening to Soviet Russian music in the car with my grandma and it was a very sweet moment.
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